Personal - Let me tell you one thing

domingo, 13 de janeiro de 2013
Photo by Emmanual Nataf
[text in english]
This a small text I decided to share with you about a particular day that happened right before last Christmas, at the 23th of December, if I'm not mistaken.
I remember walking down the street with a sad face. I was tired of working for college and fed up with a lot of crap from people that I though as friends. Back at that time, I was going through a lot of trust issues, I felt insecure about people betrayed and used. I don't know if you guys are familiar with this feeling, but for those who try to be as altruistic as I do, it's common to end up feeling like this, like you've wasted all your hope and effort in someone that didn't deserve it at all.
I've been told that I make strangers smile, how weird is that? At first I didn't quite understand what was that supposed to mean but one day someone actually explained me that I was so bubbly to strangers in the street that I would make them light up too. In stores I always thank people when they're nice to me by making silly jokes and random conversation. When someone is cleaning my college stairs I always ask for permission to pass and end up talking with the cleaning lady about the weather. On the bus I get frequently approached by elders who like to talk about their grandchildren and how college is hard for a young lady like me. It might sound like a ridiculous cliché but you'll probably find me helping strangers with groceries or elders crossing the street. It sounds silly, I know, but I can't live my life without noticing when people around me need help. Of course I'm not perfect but I really try to do my best to make others happy, even when I don't know them. But this is when it gets tricky! Because you're always so good to others, eventually you'll end up being nice to people that don't deserve you, that will suck everything that you have to offer and then leave you when things get hard. Now imagine how it would hurt to feel that way, like if you were a used bandaid that doesn't fit it's purpose anymore and gets thrown away - that was how I was feeling that day. 

Now let me tell you a little bit about Emmanuel.
That day I was waiting for the bus when this smiling guy with a camera approached me. He asked me if he could take a picture of me and I asked him why. My question didn't mean "why do you want a picture of me and what do you want to do with it?". It was more of a "Why me? My face looks terrible today, how interesting can it be?"
So this good looking guy told me with a friendly smile "I don't know, I just like your face!"
There was something really bubbly about him that made me feel happier. He took this picture of me, the one I'm currently using here on my blog. As you can see, I have a enormous smile on my face! 
Right before I caught my bus, he gave me his name and his photo gallery address. I left feeling a lot better and that moment actually made my day worth. And believe me when I say that the rest of the day was really crappy too, I spent it hearing lies after lies and hurting inside hoping this friend would come clean about his actions and intentions. But I came home feeling okay, because that day I realized that there are more people in the world that makes strangers smile. People who are true, good, friendly, joyful to those who they don't know, who can see how special you are even when you're having a bad day. 

If you feel like someone is mistreating you, let me tell you one thing: you don't have to endure being with people that don't love you and won't do for you what you're willing to do for them. If you think you deserve joyful, bubbly people around you, please don't ever settle for less. Don't settle for people who are not worth of your trust. If you think you deserve a better life, better friends or a better boyfriend/girlfriend, try harder, try again and don't give up on trying to find those persons. There are good people in this world, and you'll find friends that will prove you everyday that deserve your time and effort.

I want to thank my two best friends for being here for so many years, for teaching me how to be a better person everyday. I don't even know how you ladies have been enduring me for, what?, 8 years already? GOSH I'M SO OLD .______.
I also want to thank Emmanuel for making me smile that day :) Please visit his photo gallery here.

I hope this personal text doesn't bother you much. I though about sharing these words for people who are feeling discouraged about these kind of unfair situations in life. Please don't give up on being good and doing good to others just because people are going to hurt you and be mean to you. At the end of the day, your conscience is in peace because you tried the best you could.

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